I've often wondered what friendship really is. I always try really hard to be a good friend. Maybe I try too hard. As adults, it's a lot harder to have friendships. I understand that people are busy and that they have families and people that are more important to them that are higher priorities and should be. Honestly, all I want from a friendship is that it go both ways. That I not just be someone there only to listen and never to be listened to. That I'm not just someone to borrow money from. That we have fun together and enjoy each other. Do favors for each other. Help each other. Talk to each other about lots of different topics and learn about each other. Someone to share things with. The first friends we made here turned out to be trying to get us to invest in their business. -_- I'm not going to stop trying, though.
I found out this month that it's going to be difficult for John and I to have children. I always knew there was something up with my body. Maybe that's why I didn't want kids for so long. Because then it was MY decision and I was in control of it. I've had this little pair of white baby socks with ducks embroidered on the ankles and little duck footprints on the bottoms that are to help with traction. We called them "ducky socks with quacky prints." xD I've had them in my sock drawer since the first year we were married. We were waiting for one of us to have a steady enough job to afford children for a while. I really wanted to make sure we were ready because it's not a decision you can just take back. Having a baby changes everything. We had planned to start a family when John got back from his deployment. I've been to an OBGYN to find out what's been going on with my body. She says that it's "very treatable" which always worries me. But when we try she said to just go back in and we can start taking certain medication to get my body to ovulate. That is if the medicine I've been taking for the past couple of weeks can get my body to cycle somewhat normally again. If it doesn't then we'll have more tests. x.x John and I have decided that if it doesn't work out for us to have our own child, we will definitely try to adopt. =) So, it will be okay.
This year has started a little more roughly than anticipated. But, I refuse to let it get me down. I will continue to be optimistic and to enjoy life. :)
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The good thing is that now you're aware of the problem, and can work on getting things working right before your Johnny gets home. Hang in there, sweetie. The joy will be that much sweeter after the trials are over--and someday, they will be! We love you and pray for you always.
Thanks, Korrie. That really means a lot to me. =)
Not to worry, Christine. Life comes at you and we are supposed to learn to just be. You two will be amazing parents and whether you have your kids or your kids come through some other means, they are still meant to be yours. I have an insight to that topic. I love you both. Optimism is sometimes overated. I have learned to just be present :)
I'm sorry to hear about the friendship struggles. Back when I was still single, I remember feeling so lucky to have you as a friend, who would listen and provide valuable input and keep in touch even when I let myself get too busy. Now that we live so far apart I'm not so good at keeping in touch, but I hope you know I love and think about you often! Good luck with continuing to reach out to others, and with preparing to be a mom someday!
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