Lucky

Well, it's that time of year. The part where we're grateful and eat a lot. (A good combination.) I don't want to go too corny with each sentencing beginning with "I'm thankful for..." so I just want to talk about how good things are. :)
John actually chose a good time to do his training. Times might have been tough for the holidays this year, but the military has taken care of us amply. And I saved enough to buy John's plane ticket! I'd saved just enough. (I even had been able to splurge on a gorgeous dress to wow him with at a nice dinner over Christmas.)
I have an adorable cat that is devoted to me, even if he does bite a lot. The other night I was having nightmares and Miles paced around me and kept waking me up and sat on my pillow by my head, trying to stand guard against the bad dreams. When I get home every day he allows a hug (he gets the Patient Pet look) and as I bury my face in his fur I can feel the stress I didn't know was there melting away.
I have health insurance that covers stuff for the first time ever!
I've learned how to have a pretty good relationship with my parents. And family stuff has been pretty tranquil the past little while.
I haven't had a panic attack in a few years now. I'm learning to deal with my problems instead of hide from them.
In fact, I really can't complain about anything. Sure, I miss John so much I can't breathe. But, how the hell did I get so lucky to have someone so wonderful? There's no question that we're faithful to each other. There's no doubt that we love each other. I was so scared of getting married. I didn't believe in relationships. I was sure that "all that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away again" (Fuel). I'd never have guessed I was capable of loving someone this much. And I thank God every day for giving him to me. I can never pay Him back. Never.
So, I have a lot to be thankful for - a debt to pay to those who've taken care of me through life. And on top of it all: I get to eat pecan pie in two days! Definitely off the charts in the "boo-yah" department. And I hope you all have an awesome holiday. Don't count calories, go to bed when you want, sing with the radio, and definitely have another slice of pie for me. ;)