Try, try again.

Well, the new medicine hasn't been going well. v_v  I seem to have had a reaction to it and I've gained back a couple pounds in only a couple of days.  I keep track of my weight on an app on my iPod and you can completely tell when I started taking the new medicine on the graph.    So, I went back in to see my psychiatrist again today and we're going to stop taking this one and wait a week so it gets out of my system and then try another one.  If that one doesn't go well, I'll probably just go back to the one that was doing well and only had the jaw clenching side effect. *le sigh*  Just something that will help me manage my anxiety but not cause me to gain weight would be good.
I'm watching To Have and Have Not and Lauren Bacall's character just called herself "too skinny."  How times have changed. Lol.  A woman wouldn't say that in the movies now for anything.  In some ways things have gotten better for women, yet in other ways things are worse.  It seems that now everything is about looks more than ever before.  It's sad.  In any case, Lauren Bacall was a knockout.  And she had such a unique way of speaking. :)

Johnny is still doing well.  I try to send him presents often.  Just things he needs or things like beef jerky or ramen noodles.  I can't send him too much because he'll have to bring it back with him and he only has so much room for luggage.  He's been able to communicate with me more often now and things seem to be getting back to "normal" for us.  We both still have dreams that we are together again and wake up alone and missing each other.  At least I have the kitties with me.  Though, sometimes I feel less grateful when they jump on my stomach in the middle of the night. x.x  They're good babies, though.  They try to take care of me.

Here Zoe is laying between me and the laptop and Miles is chilling on the back of the couch.  So cute! :3
I've been keeping up the dancing. :)  Only missed one day so far.  I've been able to do more and more lately, too.  Sometimes I get set on earning a certain score or unlocking something new in the game and keep dancing and dancing.  That's one way I knew the medicine was messing things up.  When you don't change how you eat and you work out more but you gain weight, it doesn't add up.  That's how it was before with the first medicine I took out here.  I started eating less and working out more and still was gaining weight so fast that by the time I washed a pair of pants I'd worn I'd grown out of them.  And then I couldn't get off the stuff.  That was a difficult time for me.  And I was feeling like this medicine was starting out too similarly.  I am nervous about trying another new one.  I had a positive outlook before, but now I've gotten a little scared remembering how bad it could be on some of these meds.  We'll see what happens.
In the meantime, Spring is starting out rather blustery.  It's been pretty windy and rainy but we've had some luscious sunny days that have been worth it.  The kind of days that when you step outside you take a deep breath and just let the sun soak in and listen to the birds and feel new.  I love it. =)